society

im being sunk by a society that demands success, when all i can offer is failure.

feel stuff

i don't do drugs anymore
now i have to feel stuff :S

ida

The magic
the rapture
the fire
the awkwardness
the power
of fucking
and feeling
the aspiration
the deprivation
the recovery
the heat
your mind
your ravishing beauty
your ass and pussy
its on my mind
24/7
every minute
every second
i ardently seek your depravity
like an addict in need
you are my drug
i celebrate you
yearn for you
your body is scenic
your voice my katabasis
exhale it over me
dissolve my issues
show me the end the intent
i behave like a boy
with a grown mans dick
your lustful thighs
you ecstatic bitter woman
with a creamy jolt
you fucked my mind
truly fucked
raped
after all pleased
and full of jolly hope

fuck this is happening
yes it is
never thought i feel that in my life
so scared of it
never understood it
never wanted it for me (!)
never acknowledged its existence
believed it existed
never saw me as one who can be it

woman
im happy

take a picture

everybody loves his picture taken - everybody.

doors

I will remember you as something new to my life
something strange and weird i didn't posses for years
as the one with which i was strung out on acid on a tuesday morning
as the one dancing in the park and wondering why life is so picturesque
as the one who showed me art from an artists sentiment
as the one who came, when she saw me
as the one who made me change myself, for me
as the one who made me something exceptional for my women to come
as the one who hated me with all her affection
as the one i hated with all my love
i thank you
i thank you, for me being able to feel again
and the strength to share it with those, with whom i want to share

ginsberg I

"I want people to bow as they see me and say he is gifted with poetry, he has seen the presence of the Creator.
And the Creator gave me a shot of his presence to gratify my wish, so as not to cheat me of my yearning for him." - Allen Ginsberg

a girl

im into you
you are my happening
i adore you
you are my frenzy
i wanna know you
everything you stand for
or fight against
everything you think, live or destroy
everything you build, search or negate
everything
gives me a sacral thrill
your words
your look
your face
your eyes
your hair
your body
your wounded soul
your fighting heart
your triumphs
and epic wars
against everybody
against yourself
and me
your delphic blood
your erotic drive
your twisted energy
charges me
arouses me
gives me back
what i thought
i had lost
im lost
im found
near you
im me
im somebody
i nauseate
from happiness
throwing up
rainbows
abnegate
my old gods
and worship you
omnipotent
lurid
blinding
women
wich defeated me
and sacrificed my core and segments
so i can be your renewed slave
and i
as the conquered savage
acknowledge
honor
crown
and adore
your regime
as i am controlled
by your will
and desire
hail
you

black metal cappuccino

first you take thousands of thousands of bereft tradition and enslavement, excruciating titillate it with boiling water till nothing is left besides dark consumptious matter - subsequently you take the discharge, the impure aqueous effluent which you duff under violent rape from a pristine and pure feminine creature and impact, batter and engrave all your hate on it with a metal club - you watch this bestial scene for as long as your lust shiver your inwards with anticipation and thoughts of acquired, morbid appetite and anxiety for this unhallowed union of junk - you pour this mutant chimaera of insipid in a flask worthy of an emperor - and finally in the vertex of this cryptic ritual you dump the erotic fuel into your craving gob and delicate your palate - absolute - like your rule over your suffering kingdom