what a state of numbness
nothing's comin' out
nothing's goin' in
in my mind
my hands
my actions
no meaning
no future
no life
empty sex
yes
lost thoughts
yes
fast parties
yes
loads of drinks
oh yes
nothingness
oh hell motherfuckin' yes
girls, friends, possibilities
everywhere
me
nowhere
going, doing, being somebody/somewhere?
really don't know
ghosts from the past
still active
still into me
the me i thought i'd be
the me i imagined i'd be
the me i build so hard
i sold everything
i garrisoned myself in a high castle in the clouds
the me
i didn't like
i loved
i prayed for
i (carelessly and effortlessly) worked for
somebody
nobody
everybody
me
