i do not have a place in the world right now

 

i do not have a place in the world, right now

i do not have the weightlessness of youth, right now

i do not have the fuel of the naive, right now

im not a child, right now

im pushing

im trying

grinding my teeth

but i do not hold anything, right now

i can show you how i spend my time

empty bottles of water and wodka

dreams become noble metals

but only i dream of their worth

only i dream that it will work
only i dream that it will connect

am i dreaming too much or not enough

am i feeding the dream
or is the dream feeding on me
will this dream become reality too

will it grow old

or stay fresh
will it learn to breathe

or choke on its own vomit

like the shadow of what could be

she told me everything will be alright

and right now i do not believe her

cause i do not have a place in the world

right now