a new form
free
unedited
changeling
moving forward
excited
new power
new lane
every odd 7 years it would seem
i transcend
im scared of it
very lost in my own intellect
but the empty page is calling me
dim words
dim heroes
i charge after them
ginsberg, thompson, kerouac, acosta, baldwin
i cry out for your help
nwr, pasolini, jarmusch and jodorowsky
show me the light
the shadows
the angles
the wizardry
the wizards of my realm
godlike figures dancing and fighting in my cranium
old faces decorating the mosaic of time
my only wish is to join
my pain
my tumor
my propulsion
me
not them
a different arrangement
entanglement of my own episodes
interweaving of MY circumstances
needles comparison
stop it
pick out yourself
distinguish, identify, notice
train to love it
exploit it
feed it
crown it
your version of it
your narrative
your feelings
your gut
listen
open your eyes
feel
open your heart
warmth
is around you
life
is truly beautiful
to the keen observer
do not get scared by the testing
do not listen to the doubt
be the observer not the critic
and do not let your mind isolate you
as you did before
you did it all
seen even more
powerless through your own fulfillment
a pig in a blanket
oh i know you yearning the blanket
i know you
lethargic troglodyte you
i know how comforting it is
just shy away
show em the finger
they do not understand you
you alone
always alone
you tell yourself that
one more time and you will start to believe it
its not true
the only gospel is
you mother fought for your life
your mothers parents fought for your life
they gifted you that dance
apply it
water it
worship it
heal
be the transhuman warrior you always joke about
whats stopping you?
who holds your back?
only you?
no
everybody
nobody
your head
your heart
your soul
your emotions
your hunger and your thirst
all of it starts and ends with you
just you
fun-size package of joy
tell em that
tell em you need time
tell em this is important to you
tell em nic cage smooches good
tell em that
and most importantly
tell em not today chief
cause its your life...
i know you heard it all before
but did you listen?
