2023-05-15

its big business

who is ruling you
where does the money come from
how does it flow
what does it create
who is the crown
in deep waters
lost
and alone

we cry out for change
as i said before 
change costs.
are you paying for it?
with your life?
with your hard earned cash?
bills in hand
screaming!

HERE I AM
A HUMAN!
i have a voice
and something to say
will you listen
or speak over me

the money does
as i watch another episode 
of big-budget social critique
hbo showing off
a dream to follow
i get lulled into
THINK!
but forget
dont go out
dont actually do something about it
stay in
watch
talk about it 
even raise your voice

"you see!"
thats what i told you
big business 
the enemy
selling off
our emotions
our only hope
our only chance
our only trade
a barter
another pretentious mind
writing down thoughts of rebellion
against who
the power of capital?

dont you wanna be part of it
part money
part human
who needs them
down there

who am i even
to fucking align
myself to them
poor basterds
scraping
hungry
cold
who are they?
if not me.

rambling again
following a notion
drunk
10 euro whiskey down my throat
its a weekday

you listen
i hope
utterly scared
that this is a waste

of time
and mind
listening to somebody 
who could not rile up
a hand full of change
from these big buddies
with their big accounts
its a brand portfolio
and im not part of it

got off track
in your drunken stupor
lush ideas 
something to say!
you remind yourself
that you are...
a human.
worth something

they dont see that
how should they
robots
the ai is nothing new
middle management
is birthing them for eons
branding is their face
money is their heart
consumers the slaves
and souls are dead 
nothing new on tv
business as usual

coffee is for closers only
you call yourself a salesman
where is your office
paid your taxes
before you even get a job
commie faggot
for years in your room
screaming for equality
and gettin overlooked
when it finally arrives
its big business bubbe
and its prize is freedom

only one thing counts
the scrutiny of the customer
ARE YOU INTERESTED
do i have your attention
the kids scream
as i screamed
for ice cream
did i get my scoop?
or was i left with just a wiff

i remain productive!
it may take brass balls to sell
but bronze ones to persist
as i get more and more fractured
into dialectic with my own timidness
and shriek about hegel and deleuze
to apparently awake minds
when they are locked up in self therapy and tik tok reformation
all hustlers crave publicity
i say to myself 
and wave away another misunderstanding
another human interaction that lead to a dead end
im not woke im tired
the message of free enterprise is gay
stay a slave to the freewheeling commonwealth of cheap product
and you will be permitted your sodomy
or hate it.
with you whole body and heart
cause our subsidiary has the good shepherd plushy on sale for you too
praise the ends and ignore all the means
anything, except shrinking profits
you cant cope?
well crucifixion awaits the non believers

our city sold to cocktail parties
another branded sideshow
filled with giddy whirl of thieves
cheap and greed as nourishment for the 'left'
finally a black woman playing the tunes!
as the same white quacks, clowns and philistines
fill their gimp pockets with your consciousness
what a social event 
everybody was there, politically pure, fought the patriarchy
paid by specks of dust
from old money fonds
charity is not taxed you know
we only want a mite of your essence
as they viciously tear whole chunks out of you
an inhuman orgy fueled by guestlists and free rum
everybody anti establishment until they get the invite
one victory after another for big money
a new branch opened, another office build
and only the nine-to-fivers get the chance to shine
what a heap i think 
in my boxers, pale and pessimistic
another blow out for the status quo
with non-transparent windows tinted in rainbows
where are the revolutionaries?
i whine to myself in gucci slippers, while slurping on instant coffee
did i sold out too?
or am i the last mammoth without a boss
as they turn to jelly at the sight of cameras
i turn away
im not a trained pig
and when other mill around like sheep
waiting for the photographer to push the magic button
so they can say
I WAS THERE
i feel sad that i wasn't
but also vigorously unshackled
blood pumping thru my veins again
what they disposing off
at horrendous tolls
i ain't buying
their luxury smells like day-old shit
shutting it out
goin to war for myself again
keep a childish flame fed
'poor' me against the illiterate infidels
delusional
with absolute morality?
may be.
if you think something,
then be that thing.
i tell myself
look forward or look back...
that's life.
here is your moment
use it
heave yourself out
of self administered fright
whats the point of worry
they gonna make a buck
you gonna have too
they gonna spend some of it
you gonna have too
in the end
what is left
besides us
is only big business

2023-05-07

 i shot a movie.

2023-05-02

cold sunny day

cold sunny day
this second of may
nose drippy
immune system shell shocked
we rode a wild horse again
cowboy stories i tell ya
wild west tunes
on a black mount
and this in my old age
weathered it makes me
a face for the billboards
dont get off track
follow the script
im a professional after all
all these years
doing it
educated man
one eye always open
two at times
as long as there are bastards to fight
even if the struggle is a shirt now
on sale free shipment arrival notification
the full monty
show your flag
live!
but dont have too much fun
we happy that you proud!
but keep that shit silent
change and possibilities
but with a hefty price tag
revolution is a hashtag
nostalgic sentiments
if the pasts were different
but what do i know
seen it all

standing around
look a place of rebellion
another symbol
another temple
counterculture with a dresscode
lost youths in their 50s
all made a pilgrimage
showed it to the man
bought a beer
maybe a line on the toilet
laughed at the coppers
shared how deep our minds
pulled us in, or out of the machine

a great mind, can go a long way!
they say
one slogan
after another
what should we fight
where should we go

to the park then
some speed
another beer
a change of pace
they talk they laugh
they are alone
cock jokes
sucking cock
and who is supposed to do the sucking
another bump
refreshing
nose itches

life is good
you see
a kid can really make it these days
just use your wit
dont be lazy
punks not dead
just richer
sober
vegan
never gets old
forever young
remastered
a joint effort
and brand conform
a wild beast
one of a kind
son of a gun
pistolero
all that jazz
you have to show it if you know it
let them see the light
show them whats what
ask
say
hey i need that cash
cause i know whats what
i got it in me
thats what you need to do
than you make it
this year or the next

another year
another dream
another form of expression
piles of unseen wisdom
narcissistic bullshit
another aging white men
drinking himself to death
o weh o weh
he cries out as nobody listens
cold sunny spring day
one writes
another day
another toke
another movie
nose drippy
immune system shocked
but familiarly content
doing it my way
the pro way
in between filthy foreigners, aging goths and spring raver princesses
navy prada suit fascists and property gambling liberals
surrounded by power hungry closeted hands of the state
kevlar vest in formation
securing parameters
for the real estate value of the neighborhood
smashed bottles, piss and burning cars
dont look good in the brochures!
but great on the news

execute the whole lot
they say
eco hippies
ugly feminists
all those devilish gays
are yarn to be fed
to the gluttonous and righteous masses
we have to keep them unharmed at all cost
a sausage in every yap
blonde vaginas
and leather balls
for everybody
keep em occupied
keep em safe

gotta stay safe
i feel safer already
say
do they arouse themselves with their batons
touch them gently
comradery in the barracks
oil it stroke it
put it in
pull it out
smash somebodies skull in
leave them there
and blame it on the immigrants
a good day
for an upstanding citizen
the law was upheld
nobody harmed
you can go home now
one day
we grant you
youve seen the freaks
youve had your k
talked about intersectionality
and showed your nipple
dont you have a job?
tmrrw we forget
business as usual
the fight goes on
but quietly
in your home pls
dont peak out
keep earning
make your parents proud
pay off your debts
build the future
we didnt
we didnt care
it just needs to make money
thats it
you got this
you a stud bud!
cringe and shiver
this room is cold
another toke
another step
nose drippy
a cold sunny day